Tuesday, June 17, 2008; 1:20 AM
sick. nobody seems to care. whatever, i do is wrong in your eyes. no matter how hard i try, i am still more inferior than the 2 of them. i am invisible in your eyes. there's a limit to everything, don't take things for granted. how i wish my mother can be like other mummy? caring for their sons and daughter equally. you are getting more realistic, even a few dollars you are going after me. who helped you when you are broke? even when i don't have money, i will still lend you. it's not that i am paranoid. you treated me especially well when i have money. you always forget what i have done. you said that money is important and why did you even buy that freaking 60+ dollars toy aeroplane for your son? have you ever buy things for me before? have you ever asked me about my life? have you ever care about my school work before? do you know when i am sad? you claim that i am always rude to you. oh please, then wad kind of attitude is my brother giving to you? you will always say that he is still young. whenever, i compared the way you treated me and my brother you will say i am biased towards him. whenever i scolded my brother to study, you will say i despised him. furthermore, you will always blamed me on his poor results. i am treated differently just because i dunnoe how to please ppl? i don't por ppl. i am who i am. i don't want to be a fake person. life is becoming meaningless. you scolded me once before about studying and i will always rmb in my heart. " so what if you know how to study?"
i must be strong.